Mental Health & Being Overmedicated

(**NOTE: I made some changes to my website, which removed all of my followers and subscribers. You can resubscribe now. Sorry for the inconvenience!) Being sick and in solitude for two years has put a lot of things into perspective, particularly my relationships with people in general. More importantly, I’ve unearthed parts of myself that... Continue Reading →

PTSD is a Real Bitch

My reality today differs from a year ago. I’m not the same person, because both my truth and beliefs have drastically changed. Unfortunately, I can’t fight reality. With so many things out of my control, I try to control who I’m around. I’ve become so accustomed to being alone that most people’s energy disrupts my... Continue Reading →

My Neighbor is Still a Creep

My patience is hanging by a thread, and I feel like I’m about to come undone. Like I’m about to totally lose my shit on someone. The pressure is so intense, because I have no control over some things happening to me. Besides my health issues, I’m still dealing with a disrespectful, creepy neighbor who... Continue Reading →

My Brain vs Reality

In my head, I am hiking the Appalachian Mountains or jumping out of an airplane this year for my fiftieth birthday.  In reality, I’ve been unable to take a walk on the beach for a year.  Last week’s trip to the ER revealed I had a vasovagal attack, which basically made me feel like I... Continue Reading →

Fuck Your Advice

There are a few things I really need to get off my chest before I go apeshit. I realize people mean well (or do they?), but it does NOT help to be bombarded with useless information suggesting why I’m sick or how to get better. This is serious shit, not a stomachache or a common... Continue Reading →

Ghosts & Haunts of My Past

The post title goes with the season, but it also fits what’s been on my mind. At the end of my post Sobriety & Isolation, I mentioned being haunted by mistakes.  Imagine objects halfway buried in beach sand. The tide comes and goes, pushing the sand, eventually burying the objects completely so they’re unseen. Over... Continue Reading →

Trauma Counseling Begins

Considering I’ve isolated for the past year (and most of 2020) with minimal human interaction, I didn’t expect that I would talk so much at my first counseling appointment. The session was the initial intake via video with the VA psychologist. My morning wasn’t going so well, as I wasn’t feeling great physically or emotionally.... Continue Reading →

Sobriety & Isolation

I began this writing a few weeks ago and have filled it in to update.  Finally, I was able to speak to a VA counselor this week, and one of the first things I told her was a brief summary of Worst VA Doctor Experience. (The following day, I received a phone call informing me... Continue Reading →

Men Are Bad For My Mental Health

This is going to be a rant, because I’m utterly pissed off!! I’ve decided that men are bad for my mental health. If I felt better, I would have walked off some of my irate feelings towards Florida’s abortion ban proposal in the Women’s March over the weekend. Besides governing women’s bodies, the downright creepiness... Continue Reading →

Worst VA Doctor Experience

First, I want to say that I believe the medical care I’ve received through the Veteran's Administration has been pretty decent for the most part, especially considering how the VA runs itself. The doctors and staff have been professional and knowledgeable. I have an excellent surgeon that is 100% on top of things. This is... Continue Reading →

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