This is something I blogged nearly ten years ago. Unfortunately, I had repeated some of these old patterns after my marriage ended seven years ago. From February 10, 2011: We often base our own self worth by how the people we love treat us. While I was rummaging through some old journals, I flipped through... Continue Reading →
Brain Purging on a Road Trip
I haven’t posted in a while due to being so busy working and other things that have taken up my time. This is probably going to sound a little all over the place, because I’ve had some difficulty writing my thoughts clearly. Road trips are a great way to use the time to think about... Continue Reading →
My Crazy Ex
I just spent the last few days binge watching episodes of the show “My Crazy Ex,” and while a lot of those stories are outrageous, some of them don’t surprise me at all. Obviously if you’ve followed my blog, you know I have had several of my own personal experiences in dealing with crazies, but... Continue Reading →
Final Goodbyes
Since I last posted, each day has been a litany of emotions. Today has also been one of those days, because I witnessed a family member on her deathbed, and I am angry of the amount of undeserved suffering she’s had in this life while shithead people have not. With this event comes the knowing... Continue Reading →
Was I Dating a Dirty John?
Since my last post, I found out about a lot more lies that Biker Guy had told me and have come to the conclusion that I had a relationship with a Dirty John. While I was grieving this past week, alternating between anger and sadness, I did not communicate with him until he suddenly blocked... Continue Reading →
A Real Apology or Not?
After everything blew up last week with Biker Guy, he came over a few days later to apologize for lying to me, but at first I felt like it was a half-assed apology, because the first thing he said to me was, “I only have a few minutes, because I’m on the bike, and it... Continue Reading →
Another Bad Memory Triggered
Spending holidays alone sucks, but like a lot of people, there have been times not dealing with family issues makes it better. Unlike most children, I dreaded the holidays most of the time, because they were so unpleasant. Here is an excerpt from chapter six of my book, Unheard: The longer the holiday vacation, the more... Continue Reading →
Discovering a Betrayal is a Stab to the Heart
Yesterday I’d written about Biker Guy and realizing I’m just an option to him, no matter how much he tries to convince me otherwise. Actions speak far more than any words. On Monday, I’d taken a nice long walk on the beach to clear my head, and I told myself that I’m going to stop... Continue Reading →
Realizing You’re Just an Option in a Relationship
Life has been a complete rollercoaster the past few weeks, and my head hasn’t been clear enough to sit and write about it. After a follow-up appointment with my surgeon, I had to have another unexpected biopsy, which really scared the shit out of me because of what the doctor had asked me. I was... Continue Reading →
Too Nice = Wants Something In Return
It’s nice, and even refreshing, meeting genuinely nice people, but when they are too nice, something is definitely up. I used to give "too-nice" people the benefit of the doubt, thinking they’re not in it for themselves or for another purpose. After observing too-nice people during my lifetime, my perspective has changed, and I learned... Continue Reading →