Brain Not Shutting Off

Real therapy work is dark. It can be enlightening, frightening and yucky. It can bring up forgotten trauma. Part of being serious about therapy and healing is being honest with yourself. Being raw and real and unafraid to express feelings. A lot of what I say may hurt others, may worry others, or may help... Continue Reading →

Mental Health & Being Overmedicated

(**NOTE: I made some changes to my website, which removed all of my followers and subscribers. You can resubscribe now. Sorry for the inconvenience!) Being sick and in solitude for two years has put a lot of things into perspective, particularly my relationships with people in general. More importantly, I’ve unearthed parts of myself that... Continue Reading →

My First Boyfriend Was Abusive

Something I only briefly discussed in my book, Dissed & Pissed, was an assault I experienced. This is the story in its entirety. When I was a junior in high school, I worked with a guy who was a senior. My coworkers (also mostly teens) and I never knew what to expect from him, because... Continue Reading →

PTSD is a Real Bitch

My reality today differs from a year ago. I’m not the same person, because both my truth and beliefs have drastically changed. Unfortunately, I can’t fight reality. With so many things out of my control, I try to control who I’m around. I’ve become so accustomed to being alone that most people’s energy disrupts my... Continue Reading →

My Neighbor is Still a Creep

My patience is hanging by a thread, and I feel like I’m about to come undone. Like I’m about to totally lose my shit on someone. The pressure is so intense, because I have no control over some things happening to me. Besides my health issues, I’m still dealing with a disrespectful, creepy neighbor who... Continue Reading →

Ignorant People Add to My Solitude

When someone is sick or injured, they typically have a support system to help them through it. The lack of empathy I’ve experienced from a few family and friends during this time is appalling. People who lack empathy cannot relate to others, and have no business giving advice. I cannot handle the stress they bring... Continue Reading →

Men Never Cease to Amaze Me, Either

Isn’t it strange how and why we remember certain incidences?  One in particular I’ve recalled over the years happened during a college class in the 1990s. On a nice day, our instructor taught in the outside atrium, which doubled as a hallway for students. That day, the class consisted of all women, most of which... Continue Reading →

Holistic Medicine is Not My Doctor

Since I have little energy to spare, I choose to interact with very few people. Simple interaction with people that I do enjoy being around is tiring, but not draining. Still, I can only take a few hours of that, and not for days in a row. Something like a (positive) visit from a friend... Continue Reading →

Weekly Meltdowns over a Broken System

It seems that every single week I’ve had to deal with some absolute bullshit that I shouldn’t. And each time, I’m getting closer and closer to winding up in a psych unit, because I cannot deal with the stupidity of the system on my own.  Over and over and over again, I have asked for... Continue Reading →

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