Mental Health Self-Therapy Journal
The events with Big Liar lasted intermittently over the course of about two years. Alcohol had to be the only reason I fell into his trap, because now that I’m sober, I couldn’t tolerate it for a single second. Anyone that met Big Liar, especially women, agreed he’s charming and young at heart. He towers... Continue Reading →
Now that the divorce was complete, I stayed very busy with school, work, friends, and dating apps for the next several months. I was happy with my living situation, and my job was iffy, but I felt hopeful about a fresh path. Where I live has easy access by bicycle to a downtown area, including... Continue Reading →
The divorce itself went smoothly, but prior to that, not so much. The attorney I worked for told me, “Do not walk away with nothing! You deserve something!” We discussed a reasonable amount based on income and debt ratios. I never intended to hurt Bear financially or put him out. It was only fair that... Continue Reading →
(All of this took place over an eight-month period, so not all of it is in chronological order.) Prior to moving into the new house, I painted the inside, so everything looked fresh. It hadn’t been cleaned as move-in condition, which created another big job. In the meantime, a friend needed a house sitter, and... Continue Reading →
As I’ve been writing about my marriage, I hadn’t realized there were so many unresolved issues. It sucks that I couldn’t talk to Bear about things that really bothered me. If it was something he did that bothered me, he ended up throwing a fit and refusing to talk about it. (When he did that... Continue Reading →
Prior to getting married, I had no doubts about Bear and the love we had for each other. I was 100% certain we would work out, that he was my one and only, and together forever we would be. Bear was super sweet to me like no one had ever been, and he was great... Continue Reading →
About two to three years into the marriage, I gained about 20 pounds. It was a result of drinking high-sugar alcoholic beverages, probably around the time I started writing my first book, Unheard. My triglycerides were high, which made me feel awful all the time. Bear liked me fat - even more so when I... Continue Reading →
Living under the same roof while maritally separated sucks. To add insult to injury, we broke up right before the holidays. It’s painful to be stuck in a situation when you can’t physically move on. We got along okay, but I avoided interaction with him the best I could. To get away from the tension,... Continue Reading →
I had been a completely independent woman prior to meeting Bear, and now I somewhat depended on a man for the first time in my life - and it sucked. I wanted to leave as soon as I found out he was lying to me and being sneaky behind my back with this Stacy chick.... Continue Reading →
Moving back to Florida meant starting over with employment for both Bear and I. Of course, the seemingly biggest issue crept up again - money - which can bring out some real nastiness in people. A few weeks after moving into the house we rented, Bear found a job with a company he wanted but... Continue Reading →
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