The Divorce

The divorce itself went smoothly, but prior to that, not so much. The attorney I worked for told me, “Do not walk away with nothing! You deserve something!” We discussed a reasonable amount based on income and debt ratios. I never intended to hurt Bear financially or put him out. It was only fair that... Continue Reading →

Last Night in Hell

Although unplanned, the last day of school was the last time I spent in the house with Bear. The night prior changed the entire course of everything. Exhausted from lack of sleep and stress, end-of-year school activities, and trying to find a new place to live, I came home from work and shut myself in... Continue Reading →

Breaking Things & a Broken Marriage

As I’ve been writing about my marriage, I hadn’t realized there were so many unresolved issues. It sucks that I couldn’t talk to Bear about things that really bothered me. If it was something  he did that bothered me, he ended up throwing a fit and refusing to talk about it. (When he did that... Continue Reading →

Separation

I had been a completely independent woman prior to meeting Bear, and now I somewhat depended on a man for the first time in my life - and it sucked. I wanted to leave as soon as I found out he was lying to me and being sneaky behind my back with this Stacy chick.... Continue Reading →

Crossing Boundaries & Betrayal

Moving back to Florida meant starting over with employment for both Bear and I. Of course, the seemingly biggest issue crept up again - money - which can bring out some real nastiness in people. A few weeks after moving into the house we rented, Bear found a job with a company he wanted but... Continue Reading →

Ending in Hawaii

Shortly after I’d written this post in 2012: Moving to Hawaii - a Dream Come True, Bear and I had to decide to either move back to Florida or be homeless in Hawaii. As much as we wanted it to work out and be an actual dream come true, the trip to Hawaii was miserable... Continue Reading →

Falling Out of Love

As I stated in yesterday’s post, the events I’ve been discussing happened over an 8-year period. I don’t want to make it seem like Bear was a bad guy, because he wasn’t. I’m only pointing out the major problems that ultimately ended our marriage, and I want to learn from my mistakes and not repeat... Continue Reading →

Married to an Alcoholic

Some of the things I've been writing happened throughout my marriage over an 8-year span. While I was going through some old paperwork, I found a letter I’d written to Bear two years into our marriage. Everything I said in the letter were exactly the same problems we had over and over that ultimately ended... Continue Reading →

Slowly & Subtly Entering Supression

I ended the last post up to the point in which I’d met my (ex) husband. (For writing purposes, I will call him Bear.) After not seeing Bear around for a couple of months after initially meeting him, we ran into each other at a charity event, which turned into a drinking event. He was... Continue Reading →

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