Sick of Being Sick

Not much has happened since my last post, including seeing a specialist about whatever condition I have. I still haven’t left my house, eating minimally, and symptoms come and go except for the stabbing back and rib pain. Some days are better than others. A couple of days I managed to clean my house and... Continue Reading →

Depression, Sobriety, & Rebuilding

Since my last post, a few things have happened. First, someone finally took notice that my physical issue is beyond what I am being treated for. Without fixing one problem, my other issues will never resolve. I didn’t realize the amount of pain I was in until it was 70% gone for a day or... Continue Reading →

A Cougar/Cub Relationship

Still grieving from my divorce, and then grieving Big Liar’s passing by myself made me depressed. My concentration was nil, and work required me to put on a happy face, but I couldn’t do it. I spent a lot of time reflecting on everything and took a much-needed trip out of town for a week... Continue Reading →

New Singledom Life

Now that the divorce was complete, I stayed very busy with school, work, friends, and dating apps for the next several months. I was happy with my living situation, and my job was iffy, but I felt hopeful about a fresh path. Where I live has easy access by bicycle to a downtown area, including... Continue Reading →

Breaking Things & a Broken Marriage

As I’ve been writing about my marriage, I hadn’t realized there were so many unresolved issues. It sucks that I couldn’t talk to Bear about things that really bothered me. If it was something  he did that bothered me, he ended up throwing a fit and refusing to talk about it. (When he did that... Continue Reading →

Holiday Breakup

Living under the same roof while maritally separated sucks. To add insult to injury, we broke up right before the holidays. It’s painful to be stuck in a situation when you can’t physically move on. We got along okay, but I avoided interaction with him the best I could. To get away from the tension,... Continue Reading →

Separation

I had been a completely independent woman prior to meeting Bear, and now I somewhat depended on a man for the first time in my life - and it sucked. I wanted to leave as soon as I found out he was lying to me and being sneaky behind my back with this Stacy chick.... Continue Reading →

Crossing Boundaries & Betrayal

Moving back to Florida meant starting over with employment for both Bear and I. Of course, the seemingly biggest issue crept up again - money - which can bring out some real nastiness in people. A few weeks after moving into the house we rented, Bear found a job with a company he wanted but... Continue Reading →

Being Kicked While Down

In my last post, I had mentioned a variety things that I was dealing with during the worst time of my life. I was dealing with a multitude of complete mindfucks. One of the things I didn’t elaborate on was this statement:  “During that time, someone I cared a lot about did some really awful... Continue Reading →

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