Mental Health Self-Therapy Journal
This past few weeks of writing has rendered me emotionally exhausted. Writing forces me look closely at situations, relationships, etc., which helps to clarify things. But it also brings up both repressed and suppressed feelings, which has initiated this rollercoaster. Writing about my marriage brought up feelings I didn’t know I’d suppressed, things I had... Continue Reading →
As I stated in yesterday’s post, the events I’ve been discussing happened over an 8-year period. I don’t want to make it seem like Bear was a bad guy, because he wasn’t. I’m only pointing out the major problems that ultimately ended our marriage, and I want to learn from my mistakes and not repeat... Continue Reading →
Some of the things I've been writing happened throughout my marriage over an 8-year span. While I was going through some old paperwork, I found a letter I’d written to Bear two years into our marriage. Everything I said in the letter were exactly the same problems we had over and over that ultimately ended... Continue Reading →
I ended the last post up to the point in which I’d met my (ex) husband. (For writing purposes, I will call him Bear.) After not seeing Bear around for a couple of months after initially meeting him, we ran into each other at a charity event, which turned into a drinking event. He was... Continue Reading →
After I was kicked when I was down, I stopped drinking altogether for a while. (I was also under a probationary period in which I wasn’t allowed - a huge catalyst.) A few months into 2006, pretty much everything was over and done with the DUI issue. Even though I was found not guilty, I... Continue Reading →
In my last post, I had mentioned a variety things that I was dealing with during the worst time of my life. I was dealing with a multitude of complete mindfucks. One of the things I didn’t elaborate on was this statement: “During that time, someone I cared a lot about did some really awful... Continue Reading →
I have avoided dredging up this story for a long time, because it’s not just one story. It is several stories intertwined into one long, drawn-out and unnecessary pile of shit due to horrible people I met, an inefficient legal system, and poor decisions. It was the worst time of my life, and it lasted... Continue Reading →
I’ve come to the realization that I’m depressed again, and when I’m feeling content for too long of a period, this tends to happen. What I mean by content is not exactly happy and not exactly sad, but somewhere in the middle. However, I’ve been finding myself crying far too much lately and thinking about... Continue Reading →
If you haven’t read my last post "From Insta-Friend to Insta-Psycho," then you’ll need to in order to understand Insta-Psycho and his crazy text messages. I had sent screenshots of his messages to my family and a few of my friends in case something happened, because I seriously did not know this man’s mental and... Continue Reading →
Certain things will make me completely shut down from the rest of the world, and unnecessary confrontations are one of them. The energy from harsh things like that seems to linger, and I feel it. If you’ve seen a wounded animal, they usually hide in the dark and don’t want to socialize, and that is... Continue Reading →
Free The Burden 