Certain things will make me completely shut down from the rest of the world, and unnecessary confrontations are one of them. The energy from harsh things like that seems to linger, and I feel it. If you’ve seen a wounded animal, they usually hide in the dark and don’t want to socialize, and that is... Continue Reading →
Pain, Allergies, & Being Alone
I’ve been having those feelings again. Slightly depressed, but perhaps it’s because I haven’t been sleeping as well, and I’ve been in a lot of pain lately. I did something to my back somehow, attempted yoga to stretch it out, but it made it worse. Went to the chiropractor, which helped, then I picked up... Continue Reading →
Feeling Worthless & Random Thoughts
My day began with getting woken up by my cat and not actually getting back to sleep, so I'm not exactly feeling good physically. It got worse when I got up and learned I'd been locked out of my Facebook account that I’ve had since 2013. I had jokingly changed my name about a month... Continue Reading →
Touch Starvation & Depression
Something I was reading about that makes total sense to me is that “touch starvation” can lead to depression, and I fit the category 110%. Affectionate human touch is essential to connecting with others, as it stimulates oxytocin, the love hormone that reduces stress and pain, helps with emotional well-being, and naturally increases overall physical... Continue Reading →
Snail Slime and Self-Protection
A few weeks ago, a snail was crawling up the window of my door, which was an unusual thing to see. A big believer of signs and symbols, I looked up the meaning of the snail. It turns out that I learned something new - snails have two different types of slime; one type is... Continue Reading →
Working Through Grief After Being Ghosted
First, I want to say that I am tired (and I know my friends are, too) of talking about this person, and I want it out of my brain once and for all. I wish I could say this is my last time talking about it, but I’m not sure I can say everything in... Continue Reading →
Things that make me Batshit Crazy
A person can only take so much shit before they lose it. I discovered this about myself the other night when I lost my shit in public. I’m not proud of it, but I’m also not sorry for it at all - and the reason is this: Those people were not my friends; they are... Continue Reading →
Living Without a Purpose
It’s days like today I wish I’d been an abortion and wonder why in the hell I’m even on this planet. It’s also days like today that remind me of why I refuse to own a gun or glad I don’t have a gas oven. Oftentimes, it’s the people that you love the most that... Continue Reading →
PTSD Triggers and Losing My Sh*t
I have never been kicked out of a place before, but that changed the other night, and I am not the type of person to lose my shit like that. I will leave a place before I lose my cool, so I am surprised at myself, actually. It wasn’t expected, but there were three things... Continue Reading →
End of Year Brain Dump 2019
I’ve been struggling a lot emotionally lately. I don’t know if it’s the holidays or a combination of things that have kicked in, things that have triggered PTSD, anxiety, and depression back full force, causing me to lose sleep and lose my appetite again. I seemed to have been doing fine up until about a... Continue Reading →